Hello internet! I feel like it’s been a while since I’ve written and though I shouldn’t force myself on this relationship, I do have a few words and thoughts to share thankfully.
I mentioned a few posts back that I was writing a screenplay to make sense of some of the things going on in my life right now; well, suffice it to say the words and pages have been pouring out almost involuntarily. I guess I opened up the flood gates. It’s exciting, and even though I haven’t even finished writing a first draft (like many over eager first timers) I’ve gone and started discussing preproduction with a few friends! I guess it’s just because I do feel passionately about the subject (that subject being mental health). On that note I wonder about my own mental health. I started wondering if we as individuals have any decent way, any barometer of gauging our state of mind and well being.
I guess the reason why the question popped up in my mind is because I was having the kinds of irrational thoughts that I hope (and wonder if?) other creatives feel as well. Like, though this year I’ve had a very successful year in my profession, travelling abroad, working on some big client projects as well as my own personal ones, I still got jealous at, or annoyed at seeing a few particular individuals getting ahead in the field. Ok I hope you’re not thinking I’m this really bitchy sly guy who makes voodoo dolls and stops people from progressing but no! I hope not anyway! I’m generally really happy for people and always eager to teach the little I know. But sometimes in this age of hyper-everything, I feel like I’m falling behind, drowning in the sea of unfulfilled potential!
Sometimes I just need to take a minute and remind myself to be really grateful for all the great things I’ve got going for me, and the things to come, because I’m sure there are a lot! InshAllah!
Anyway, so if anyone has any decent way of self-gauging well being and mental health, let me know, and if you’ve ever felt annoyed at seeing the celestial career flight plan of other creatives then let me know as well, I need to know I’m not the only one!